My first true love, part 1...

9-15-2011. That was the day that my life changed forever. I have never been the same since that day, and I just want to go on record and say that I have absolutely no regrets. A lot of people have opinions about the events that took place because of that day, but I think it's time that I told mine. So here we go...

I was sitting in the gym with a friend waiting for the teachers to come get us for the mind numbing school day to begin when I saw her. I noticed her as soon as she walked in the room. She was then, and is now, the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. As soon as I saw her, I knew I was meant for her. I knew I would fall in love with her. I stared at her as she walked up the bleachers. I asked my friend who she was, and she said she didn't know. She continued talking. I have no idea what about because I was still mesmerized by the breathtaking girl I was still staring at.
The teachers came and got us, and I went to my locker. My mind hadn't drifted from the girl I had seen. I couldn't get her off my mind, not that I wanted to. I saw her standing near the door of my 1st period. I had to talk to her. I had to know her, so I told her I liked her shirt. She said thank you, but what I only noticed much after the fact was that she was staring at me too. I went in my class still completely mesmerized. It's strange looking back and thinking that was the first time we ever spoke to each other.
The teachers then sent us to our homerooms. Another of my friends was in there. We will call her, M. M and I talked, and we walked together in line to get our school pictures taken. We were standing in line, and we saw her. She called M over, (they were friends) and they kept talking and looking at me. After we got our pictures taken, M and I sat on the bleachers. Then, the best thing that ever happened to me occurred. The girl came over. She asked me to be her best friend. I said I would be. I was trying so hard to contain my excitement. She came over just to talk to me, and she wanted to get to know me too. She touched my hand too. It sent surges through my entire body. In that moment, it was like we were the only two people in the universe.
I learned that her name was Alex. I kept seeing her in school, and not long after that, she asked me if she could hug me. Of course, I said yes. When she did, I felt so safe and sound. It was, and still is, one of the best feeling I have ever experienced. We had this thing between us since the moment we meant. It was amazing and like nothing I had ever felt before. I got nervous around her. She gave me butterflies by just looking at me. I was falling for her, and there wasn't a thing I could do about it.
It wasn't long before she asked me out. I said yes, but I figured it was just a fun thing and that we would break up soon. I wasn't surprised when that was exactly what happened. I was sad, but I hadn't yet had the time to fall hard enough to be heart broken. We didn't really talk after that, but about a week later, after catching her staring at me all the time and maybe teasing her a little c: , she told me she wanted to talk to me and to text her tonight. I knew what she wanted to talk about as soon as she said that. Now, I had a rule about not dating someone more than once, but I also knew as soon as she said she wanted to talk that I was going to say yes.
That night she asked me out again, and I said yes. The next day we ran to each other and she held me. Science will deny it, but the whole world stopped in that moment. I was elated. People knew we were back together simply by the huge, stupid smile on my face. I was falling faster and harder for her every day, and it was terrifying me. But it also excited me. One day she walked up to me at school and asked me if she could kiss me. I said yes; I think. I really can't remember because I was nervous and on cloud nine at the same time. She kissed me, and holy Hera, there were fireworks and time freaking stopped. It was magical, and I don't even care if I sound lame for saying that.
Then, she moved to Bowdon which sucked. I mean; who the hell even knows Bowdon exists? I was in an LDR, and yet still I was falling harder for her. I was falling in love with her. Well, based on past events, I was terrified of falling in love, or getting close to someone at all really. So I panicked...
I decided to break up with her and start flirting with this this very trashy promiscuous girl I knew. I know; I know, not my best panic strategy. So Alex called me of course and was like what the hell? We argued and hung up. I cried and reeled trying to figure out what the hell I had done, and why the hell I was running. We didn't talk all that much for a week or so, but then, I spewed all my feelings and told her I loved her. We got back together once again.
We would meet up, and we texted and talked on the phone a lot. She sang to me. That was the sweetest damn thing ever. It was always easy talking to her. We always just came naturally. We know each other in ways that no one else does or could. She made me feel everything at once, and I felt so alive. She took my breath away every time I saw her. We were and are both kind of broken and have some serious relationship issues, but we both understood each other.